There are so many big decisions that are coming up in our life and I seem to be doing a ton of worrying about them. To get out of the military or to stay in? Babies? To buy a house or not to buy? Move close to family or move where we want? LOL yes, I know it sounds crazy to move somewhere that you don't want to live just to be close to family. But, my family and I have always been really close and I love living by my parents. I miss my brother and sil a ton and feel like I am missing out on my cousins growing up. Where has the time gone? I know that people say that I am not old but 27 feels ancient sometimes... Where did the carefree days go of not worrying about anything and just living??? All of my friends are having kids. I don't just mean one or two but all four girlfriends of mine are preggo and the other ones are trying. Everytime I call anyone they talk about babies and mortgages. When did we start growing up? When did I start not buying a cute new shirt because I have to pay a phone bill? hmmm... I think that I grew up and have now become and adult without ever realizing it. I think that I can be an adult, but just not be a stressed out adult. This is my mission::: Get back to being carefree. How you might ask? By trusting and believing in God. I know that you may say, well how can God do this? In Matthew 6:25
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important that food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Amazing. But, this is where I have trouble. Holding onto the word, keeping it sealed in my heart. That when trouble comes that my first response is not "oh crap what do I do?" rather it is, "Lord I know that you have my under your wing and will always protect and look after me." How do I get to that point that my first instinct is to just trust and turn to God? The other day while I was reading the Bible and praying I felt like the Lord wanted me to write down a list of things that he was going to fulfill for me so I could stop worrying.
Clothes
Housing
Babies
Jobs
Health Insurance
School
Car
This is my list. "Lord I am handing this over to you." I know that he will show my hubby and I the way, and help us make all the right decisions over our lives. Even the things that we can't see our way around, I am going to step out and have faith that he will take care of everything for us. Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I have married my soul mate the one man that no matter what happens in the world I can turn to and I can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for us.
