When did I become a grown-up?

There are so many big decisions that are coming up in our life and I seem to be doing a ton of worrying about them. To get out of the military or to stay in? Babies? To buy a house or not to buy? Move close to family or move where we want? LOL yes, I know it sounds crazy to move somewhere that you don't want to live just to be close to family. But, my family and I have always been really close and I love living by my parents. I miss my brother and sil a ton and feel like I am missing out on my cousins growing up. Where has the time gone? I know that people say that I am not old but 27 feels ancient sometimes... Where did the carefree days go of not worrying about anything and just living??? All of my friends are having kids. I don't just mean one or two but all four girlfriends of mine are preggo and the other ones are trying. Everytime I call anyone they talk about babies and mortgages. When did we start growing up? When did I start not buying a cute new shirt because I have to pay a phone bill? hmmm... I think that I grew up and have now become and adult without ever realizing it. I think that I can be an adult, but just not be a stressed out adult. This is my mission::: Get back to being carefree. How you might ask? By trusting and believing in God. I know that you may say, well how can God do this? In Matthew 6:25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important that food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Amazing. But, this is where I have trouble. Holding onto the word, keeping it sealed in my heart. That when trouble comes that my first response is not "oh crap what do I do?" rather it is, "Lord I know that you have my under your wing and will always protect and look after me." How do I get to that point that my first instinct is to just trust and turn to God? The other day while I was reading the Bible and praying I felt like the Lord wanted me to write down a list of things that he was going to fulfill for me so I could stop worrying.

Clothes

Housing

Babies

Jobs

Health Insurance

School

Car

This is my list. "Lord I am handing this over to you." I know that he will show my hubby and I the way, and help us make all the right decisions over our lives. Even the things that we can't see our way around, I am going to step out and have faith that he will take care of everything for us. Matthew 6:34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I have married my soul mate the one man that no matter what happens in the world I can turn to and I can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for us.

GTMO Housewife

Sometimes our journeys in life take us exactly where we want to go. Other times the Lord leads us on a completely different path that we never would have taken ourselves but always ends up being the best path for your future. Psalm 16:11 "You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand." Being in GTMO has taught me PATIENCE. It has taught me that in today's society if you want something you just go and get it, but here in GTMO it is not like that. When you want something here you have to order it and it usually takes about 2-4 weeks to get to you (that is as long as it is not shipped to Jamaica first which in that case takes a few months)and that you HAVE to be patient. The speed limit is 25mph and you always have those people on base that drive 23mph. Yes, the Lord is still working with me on patience b/c when I am behind someone driving 23 it drives me crazy. When you need something and it is past 8pm you can't get it b/c that is when the NEX closes, (the only store on base) or if you need furniture you can only buy it on the weekends. When we first came to GTMO I was constantly frustrated I walked inside the NEX and literally walked the entire store in less than five minutes. I wanted to be able to shop at midnight if I felt like it, water my lawn whenever I wanted, and drive faster than 25mph. Now these are things that I have come to love about GTMO. It took taking me out of "society" to realize that my life was WAY to fast paced, and that I really needed to slow down. I actually enjoy only having one store on base b/c that means I get PACKAGES!!! I have come to LOVE LOVE LOVE getting packages it is one of the highlights of my day. Well, that is when the mail guy comes, LOL getting your packages definitely takes patience. Don't get me wrong I definitely have my days of wanting to get off island. Last night though my hubby and I went to the beach and watched the sunset from the water and then to see Cowboys vs. Aliens on a work night! If I was back home we would only go to the beach maybe once a month b/c we would have to pack up the car etc. Now when you live a mile from the beach you get to go everyday if you want to. The Lord has really been like GTMO in my life he has been teaching me that just b/c I want something right then that does not mean that I am going to get it. I have to pray and seek him first. Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened." John 14:13-14" And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name. " Those verses are just so powerful to me that if you ask for something from the Lord that will glorify Him that He will give it to you. To me that is where my faith comes in. That I have to up my faith to REALLY and truly believe that what the Lord's word says will come to pass in my life. So for now, I am seeking and praying and asking for guidance from the Lord. I love you friends! Hope you are having an awesome and blessed day!

Walking in faith

Job: 5:8-9 "But if it were I, I would appeal to God; I would lay my cause before him. He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted.

Let me start off my introducing myself... my name is Jessica and I am a ordinary housewife who loves the Lord. I may not always act like a Christian, you may not recognize it in my walk or how I talk. Trust me, I am working on this. The Lord has had me working on my mouth and showing me that what comes out of my mouth is in direct correlation to what is in my heart. Matthew15:18 "But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart." Sometimes in life I have a hard time closing my mouth. I spout out mean things without thinking of who I am hurting or what harm it is causing. Then after I am not angry anymore I spend the rest of the day feeling horrible about what I have said to that person. Being a wife is hard. Period. My husband is an amazing and extremely patient man who loves me like no other has. When we first got married I thought "ok, this is going to be fantastic! I get to live with my best friend, nothing about him bothers me etc. etc." now we have been married almost three years and there are things that bother me, there are things that are annoying and that I was always trying to "change" about him. Then I met an AMAZING woman of God she taught me that you can't change your husband you can only change yourself and that everytime I got upset over something that annoyed me I should pray about it using scripture. I Corinthians: 13-4:8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails. I thought to myself... but it's not me that needs to change! It is him! He is the one who does not pick up his dirty laundry. Yes, sadly this was our big fight and made my life quite miserable for a time. I refused to pick up his laundry until it was about 3 feet high on the side of the bed, then finally caved and did it all. I would sulk and be mad about this laundry all day until he would come home from a VERY long day at work and would want to argue over laundry. Instead, I should have met him at the door with a big hug and kiss hello. Proverbs 31:12 "She does him good and not harm all the days of her life." Over and over again those words would ring in my head... "you can't change your husband you can only change yourself and you must PRAY about what is annoying you." I thought to myself but how can I pray to the Lord about laundry? Surely the Lord does not want to know about my petty fights with my husband... then I realized HE DOES. He wants to know everything that goes on in my life. So, began my journey of talking to the Lord about everything which opened up so many other doors in my prayer life. I am not perfect nor am I claiming to be. I love the Lord with all my heart and have no idea where I would be in life if the Lord had not come and saved me. But, that is a story for another day :) Be blessed today!